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*iss meeeee!! how exiting. hmm where'd i leave off last? oh yea dovlet's wedding. hott wedding. it was kinda dull but the joug was crazy so it was cool. i got mad at zaid though cuz i thought he was checking out the bride's sister but i was wrong. very wrong. sorry habib. it's all good now though. came back to susu's afterwards. we hung out with her mom and sister for like an hour. then they went to sleep. me and su stayed up. she eventually fell asleep and i waited up for zaid. we talked til like 6 am. i was so happy. he didn't drink a lot at all and i'm proud of him ;] the only reason he didn't drink was cuz it wasn't available but still he would of known his limit so it's all gravy baybee. we said bye to tima that day too. she's my cousin and i've been around her all my life and i love her so much i didn't want her to leave but hey she got the hell outta here so good for her. she deserves the best. she's nothing but sweet and caring to everyone. i wish her the best. i'll see her in cali in 2 weeks though so after i come back from that i'll really realize that she's gone. then saturday we went and danced during the day, then hung out at home and i had practice that night. talked to zaid all night again. haram he got grounded. communication problems with his parents. i wish he was on good terms with them so that life wouldn't be so hard at home for him but that's the way he is. can't change that. he wears he's gonna leave the house and get a job to save money for college in kavkaz. he's not goin anywhere and even if he did leave the house his parents wouldn't let him go to kavkaz with nothing. they'd definately educate him here first. his mom's on his side and she cares. it's just him and his father. all he has to do is communicate and cooperate with them, which isn't that hard, bes what'chya gonna do. i can't and won't tell him what to do or judge him for what he's doing, but i know he's smart enough to do the right thing. anyway i'm sticking by his side no matter what and hopefully he'll realize he needs his parents for now. yesterday was boring just hung out all day. practice at night. was online with zaid til 3 am then he called. we talked til 6 and luckily we hung up at the perfect time cuz susu's mom woke up. we had such a nice convo. well him and that fag adam had a convo/argument online so we talked bout that. he handled it really good though i was like damn you shut him up. and then i was like ok talk to me now im more important ;] and i did this thing in my profile like if you clear the background it says something with his name hidden in it so he got happy ;] i'm good like that. we were reminising the whole night rememberig our history and everything. i swear to God fate brought us together. we always had a thing for each other but neither of us knew about that other. and then finally it happened. we were always like best friends and now more. first time we met, i was new at the cba and he had ever single girl wanting him but he didn't want them he just wanted to impress me and first time i saw him i had every guy after me but i wanted him but we both thought we couldn't have each other so nothing ever happened. and look at us now. nothing can split u apart. i'm tellin you man - naseeb. we have a cool history. i love him so much. he really is the best thing that's ever happened to me and i'm so grateful for him. we both make the other who we are and it's the best feeling in the world to know that you can have an effect like that on someone. he's defintely the one for me, without a doubt. he's too much to lose. ok well i'm gonna blab forever so i think i should go. i wrote a lot. gonna go work out so maybe one day i can look good standing next to him. i'll update soon hopefully. chao. love you elbi mwah <3
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[27 Dec 2002|12:26am] |
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*hey hey hey. iss me again. yea so nothing new the past couple of days just practice everyday. i've been sleepin over susu's the past 2 days and for the next couple of days also cuz we're doing the floors at home and u can't walk on them yet so i'm here ;] it's fun. yea and yesterday we got snowed in so we improvised throughout the whole day so it wasn't so bad. i had fun in the snow. bout to go work out now, paint my toes, shave, and get my stuff ready for dovlet's wedding tomorrow!!! how exciting. it's gonna be fun. a million things to do tomorrow though. gotta wake up at 9. go to the nail salon at 10 cuz susu wants to change the color. tima's at 12. then to the mall to buy a belt and shoes for susu's outfit. then back here to get ready. akh akh akh the duties of being a girl. it's all good i like being a girl. i just hope, H O P E, that zaid doesn't get drunk, or too drunk tomorrow. fine drink no problem, but not too drunk. i understand it's an occassion and it doesn't always happen so that's why i'm not flippin bes ya3nee .. 3ala me7lek. it's all good i'm not complaining, just being cautious. wowow i'm so excited about tomorrow. alright i'm bout to brag .. imma look hott tomorrow. the dress is hott, the hair's gonna be hott, makeup's gonna be hott, wowow can't wait. haha kolo 3ashanek 7abibi ;]- alright gonna go do my thing and then wait for habibi. chao :)
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[23 Dec 2002|10:32am] |
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*i'm so sickkkkk. blah. well not sick, but i have a bad soar throat and my nose is stuffed up and i'm all congested and i keep sneezing. oh well i think it's those 24 hour things anyway. yea soooo let's see what's new. a lot actually. friday night was practice. slept over susu's. was on the phone with zaid from 3 to 7. mini arguement. we hung up with me mad at him though. i don't like when he's not in control of everything because then everything gets put on me whether it's good, bad, my fault, or his fault. i can be very strong and i can handle a lot but then again i can only take so much before i break down and he knows that. and in this case, he was out of control and he didn't know what he wanted to do or even who he was and that just made everything worse. i tried talking to him and i think i said some stuff that helped. and then he does a complete 360 and he's back on top and it's all good again. i feel bad though cuz i know he hates not knowing what he wants to do or not being able to make up his mind and it's hard. but thennn, saturday, me, susu, her mom, and her sister cleaning and cooking alllll dayyyy and allll nighttt for a party her mom was throwing for her friend that was going away. tima also had a bridal shower that night so me and susu went to tima's around 7:30. we had fun. we left there around 10:15 and we went and stopped by the cba for like 15 minutes cuz i wanted to see zaid. i got mad at him cuz i thought he was ignoring me but turns out he didn't know i was only gonna be there for 15 minutes so he apologized. we went back to susu's around 11 and tore up that party ;] everyone left around 12:30 and we were cleaning up until 2. zaid called around 3:30. we had the absolute best convorsation ever. finally, f i n a l l y, we're back to normal!!! woohoo. everything is perfect now. finally i can show him how happy he can be. after we settled everything he was like "what would i do without you?" and i don't know if he said it seriously or sarcastically but either way it just made everything perfect and i was so glad he said that. i told him he'd be fine but we both know he needs someone to check up on him from time to time. anyway i'm just happy that everything's okay again. all that headache and i told him we were gonna be okay. we both make mistakes. i always tell him "see i told you" so if he listened to me everything would of been fine but it's all good it's worth it. it's a learning process. and he told me he loved me after like a week and it felt like it was the first time he'd ever said it. it felt so right. i was like yesss this is gonna work. we're good together. he's definately my best friend and the most incredible guy i've ever known. it's the small things that make it good too like we always know what the other one is thinking and we always have the same ideas in mind it just clicks. yea so we hung at 6 and we went to sleep and i woke up around 11:30. me and susu cleaned and muked all day and went to the cba around 3:15. we picked up khalid on the way. we hung out there for like 10 minutes and then we decided to clean up the back of the cafeteria and turn it into a sitting area for the group so we did that and then zaid came at 4 and i was so happy to see him. hung out for a little. went back to susu's for her to change and back to cba at 5. we all just chillax'ed and practice started around 7:30. i finallyyyyy got the move down that i've been working on for like 2 weeks. left at 11. clara took me home. i got home and my mom was like you're grounded you don't go anywhere during the week except practice. i'm like whatever cuz i don't do anything during the week anyway except practice and shopping so whatever. and she's like no phone or computer after 10:00 i'm like aighttt i get to sleep now. oh well i don't care even if it was a problem i wouldn't listen to her. she only cares when she wants to muk me so whatever i'll only care when i wanna muk her too. anywayyyyyy i wrote a lot. gonna go do some laundry now and then wake up my habibiiiii. see you later. i love you zaid :]
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*helloooo. yea so school was mukkkkkkk today. the day went by so slow thank God tomorrow is gonna be like nothing and then we're out!! woo hoo!! yea so got home. susu picked me up cuz she wanted me to go with her to the dmv so we went there. came home at 5. waited for zaid. argued with him again. 3adi. we made up thank God. he realized he was the one muking today and he apologized for it and we had a nice convo. i appreciated that habib ;] finally gettin back on track gettin somewhere now. very good sign. he discovered my "plan" of lowering my intake of food. he muked me for it. he's making me eat now. zay ma bido. ya allahhhhhh shu b7ibo. no one will ever understand. he knows me better than anyone and even he won't understand. it's okay i like it like that. he's all i need and that's all that matters. i love you hayati. ok well i have a lot to say but too tired to so i'll update tomorrow hopefully. nite guys ;]
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*blahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!! i could of killed myself yesterday! i got into the absolute worst arguement with zaid and wanted to kill myself. i dont even wanna say what it was about it was so bad. of course he fixed it and everything's fine again. then today i went to the mall right after school with susu. i bought a bridal/going away gift for tima. i also got 2 pairs of jeans, a shirt, and some stuff from gap so that was cool. of course then i come home and fight with zaid. all we do is fight now. one day it's paradise, the next day we're down each other's throats. asdfjk; i just wanna go back to normal again. i want to be happy. i want him to be happy. we can't be happy if we keep fighting!! rarrr just gotta resolve this once and for all. it's gonna take a while though. oh well it's worth it. it really is. anyway change of subject. school is muk. my geometry teacher is retiring and she's gonna be out for the rest of the week so that's different. other than that school is normal. can't wait til this damn break. i need it man. i have practice friday, a party saturday, practice sunday, practice monday, practice tuesday, a party wednesday, practice thursday, HOTT ASS WEDDING friday, practice saturday, practice sunday, practice monday, new years party tuesday, practice wednesday, then back to school. 2 weeks of school and i'm off to cali! it's only 4 days but hey i'm gettin the hell outta here. anyway, better get back to my argument with zaid. nite.
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*yo yo. yea so school today was blah. like usual. got home and went to sleep cuz i'm deprived of that. woke up at 5:30, waited for zaid to sign on. he came on at 6. we talked for about an hour. then i had to go to michaels to get stuff for this huge spanish presentation. then i had to run in to brother bruno to pick up food for the fam since the kitchen's not done yet they're still eating out. i've decided i'm only eating lunch and drinking water from now on and working out daily. i got the working out part and now i got the not eating part so hopefully some results soon!!! the food took like 15 minutes so i had to sit and wait so the guys that work there were talking to me forever i'm like okay i'm gonna get raped soon. finally got outta there, came home and talked to my habibi. i gotta get goin soon though cuz i have 2 tests to study for. wish me luck :-/ i'll update tomorrow. nite nite ;]
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*hala hala. okayyy friday - went to cba at 6. hung out with zaid, khalid, paret, abdullah, anzor, ali, zaed, janet, susu, and batoul til practice at 8. practiced dragged until midnight. hung out with zaid and paret for a little bit. my mom called looking for me and when i got home my dad was waiting for me but he didn't say anything. zaid lived nite life by himself so i went to bed around 2. got up like 10:45, 11:00. showered and got ready. susu came and picked me up around 1:30 and we went to garden state. we left at 4:30 but we didn't get out of the damn parking lot til 5:00 cuz of the traffic. we almost got killed by some phsyco driver. and on top of that guys in the mall swear there's no one else around them so they sit and stare like they're mezmorized. i'm like what the hell are you looking at?!?! wanted to get my nails done but we didn't have time cuz i had practice at 6. so went to cba, practice til 10:30. i slept over susu's last night so we hung out at the cba for a little then went home. i slept from like 1 to 3 and then zaid called and we talked til 7. it was a good convo;] god i fall in love more and more with him everyday. anyway, went to sleep from 7 til 9:30. got up, got ready, had breakfast, left susu's around 10:30. we went to the gym at willy and we danced til 12:30. freaking couldn't get zafoug down at practice yesterday but i got it today ;] zaid told me to put my hips into so i tried it and it worked. thank you habibi. yea so finally we visited anzor at dd and i got home around 1:10ish. cleaned til 3 and i've been sittin here since. blah school tomorrow. i have a spanish project to due. mukkkk i hate school. gotta go mom's callin me. see you's :]
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**hellooooo lovelies. how you all doin? good i hope. hmmm lemee tell you about today. b o r i n g. went to school, normal day except i had 4 tests asdfjkl;. ok i lied there was one exciting thing. nader and george got into like a push and shove 7osheh and so the teacher tried breaking it up and told batoul to go get the vp. so she did. whatever everything got settled, and when the bell rang and we left the cafeteria, i saw george's girlfriend emily staring down batoul. i was hoping SO bad that she would say something but she didn't. so turns out batoul and emily have 9th period together so emily started with batoul and she was like 'why you starting with my boyfriend? why'd you rat him out?' but batoul shut her up. freaking you don't know the story so don't but in. anyway that was today. and i found out my geo teacher is retiring december 30 so that's gonna be weird. yea so then i got home and took a nap til 5:00. zaid called me at 6 and we talked for like two hours. then he had to go shower and do hw and i had to study. we've been back to normal lately and i'm loving it. thank God things are good again cuz i would of went insane if i lost him. he's definately the one man. ya3nee ma3roof ino ra7 nitjowez. thank God man. yea so then he called back around 9, we talked for a few and then his phone started dying so he had to go. i'm gonna see him tomorrow ;] how exciting. during ramadan i saw him eevveerryyddaayy. it was the best. now that that's over, i only get to see him on the weekends and if i decide to go out during the week. oh well it's all good. like they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder ;] my sister has dance practice at 6 and then me at 8 so me and ziz are gonna chill for a couple hours before practice. yay ;] anyway, i'm gonna go study some more and hit the bed. blah we have interims tomorrow. i'm scared. ohhhhhh wellllllll. nite nite everyone ;] tisba7oo 3ala `7air.
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*hello there. i remembered to update today ;] yea so school was okay today. i was actually somewhat calm since everything got cleared up with my and zaid yesterday [[we weren't doing so good]] so yea i actually paid attention today. after school i came home and sat online for a few, then susu picked me up. we went to the gym and worked out and danced for a couple of hours. then we went back to her house to change. we went to get stoy [[cigarettes]], coi [[coffee]], and i picked up my picture from the se7ra [[party]] on saturday. they came out okay. then we hit the willy library and met up with sawzer [[susu's bf]]. i'm happy i got a lot of studying done so i'm good. just got back home around 8:30. now i'm just gonna finish up some hw and wait for ziz to sign on ;] ughh this situation is so complicated. you know how sometime things just happen and you regret every second of it? yea that's what happened. i f'ed up and now we're paying the concequences but it's okay cuz everything's gonna be perfect again soon ;] [[i promise habibi]] he's really the only person i've ever met that i feel 110% comfortable around. we're like the perfect couple. he's always on my mind i can't think of anything else. and when i'm with him i feel like there's nothing stopping me from being myself. i'm so secure with him there's nothing else i could ever want. i know we're gonna be together for a lonnnnggggggggg time. never again will we go wrong. i love you habibi. inta hayati wa elbi ma3ak.
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hellooo everyoneeee!! it's me again, sina. how is everyone? yea well i got bored and i was looking at profile's and i came across adria's and i saw her lj link and i thought 'hey, i should start mine up again' so here i am ;] i'm excited don't mind me. wow it's been a long time. yea i'm really depressed right now but whatever gotta get over it soon. anyway, wanna change the layout so if anyone is willing to help, your gratitude will be greatly appreciated ;] see you's.
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*hey guys. i know it's been a while since i've updated, but i think this is it for me. i'm not gonna write in here anymore. chao ;]
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*hello. wow i haven't updated in a very long time. iono what's wrong with me. just lazy i guess. if i don't write for like another year, don't worry i'm not dead. yea so nothing new is really happeneing. danny came back from jordan on the 7th. we've been practicing everyday since then. wednesday was tamara's birthday. we didn't have practice that day so we through a party for her [[not me technically but the whole dancing group]] then we all went to king george. we were gonna go to some place called 'the cafe' in hoboken...but our reservations were screwed up or something so yea that didn't happen. but king george was fun. then we all went back to the cba for like 5 minutes. i slept over susu's that night so we rented 'a walk to remember' and 'i am sam'. o h m y g o d . saddest 2 movies of my life. i cried for like an hour even after 'a walk to remember' finished. it was weird. i came home the next day and then i had practice. alright so here's where it starts. friday, me, lana, tania, nora, and dina were all supposed to hang out cuz lana came up from school for the weekend. so we're at the cba and then susu comes and she's like come home with me for 5 minutes i just wanna change and we'll come back. i'm like alright cuz tania and dina weren't even there yet. so we go. we end up there for like ever. blah blah blah this whole big thing happens we end up at willy. all that was like 15 minutes. blah then i got mad cuz we were supposed to go back to the cba but we didn't. susu knew i had to go back to the cba but we didn't. no..her, tamara, gupsa, and sat decide to just sit in the car. hello?? we're sitting outside. why would you just sit in the car and not say a word to anyone? so whatever i was like susu can u give me my purse please. she gave it to me and me and rania left. 2 minutes later susu messages me and says 'fine, don't say bye. have fun.' i was pissed so i was like 'yea you too'. i had to go home though and do something for my dad for like half hour. but before while we were at willy lana called from tania's cell but susu answered it and told her i'd call her back. and i did. i told her i had to go home and stuff and that i would be there asap. i was there like 5 minutes later. turns out that lana khano doesn't feel like going out so we just ended up staying at the cba all night. don't get me wrong i still had fun with paret, khalid, tania, and zaid....but i absolutely h a t e when people cancel plans the last second. i hate it. it's just a pet peeve i have. it drives me crazy. so im like fine only cuz it's lana and she's one of my best friends. but later that night, they came back from willy about an hour later. susu asks me why did you just leave. i'm like cuz when you're around them you're different. she's like how? i'm like i'll tell you later here and now isn't the time to talk about it. but you know, when she left it was all good she gave me a kiss and everything, i thought it was all good. she even e-mailed me that night and apologized and i accepted it. but then, saturday...oh boy. we had practice. susu's back in the group so it was her first day back. me and clara were outside on the tower talking and there was a bunch of other people out there too. susu walks in and she said hi to everyone. i was like hi, i have you tights do you want them? [[for practice]] she's like no it's alright i don't have my skirt anyway. so i'm like okay. i'm not just gonna leave clara in the middle of our convo and jump on susu's head just cuz she came. um no i don't think so. they're both my friends. just cuz they don't get along doesn't mean that i have to pick sides. so then practice starts i'm acting like normal. during break, i went outside again and i was talking to rania. then i see susu. i go to her, and i whisper in her ear, are you disappointed with me for being disappointed with you? [[meanging the night before]] she goes "excuse me" with this pissy attitude. so i said it again. she's like i don't know, you tell me. you're the one that didn't say hi. i was like excuse me but when u said hi i said hi do u want your tights? i didn't ignore you. she goes well yea but still you had an attitude. i'm like i was talking to clara i'm not just gonna leave her. she goes yea but then you walked into the hall like you didn't know anyone. in my head i'm like what the hell are you talking about i walked in normally. so i'm like whatever and i walked away. she goes yea whatever. i would of stayed and talked to her, but she made a scene. and everytime something like this happens, no matter who it is, she always has to make a scene. fricken ok i whispered it in yur ear for a reason, not for the whole world to hear it. bet you if that was time instead of me she wouldn't of said a word. so yea she was all buddy buddy with sat tamara gupsa and rania all night lol. so yea i thought about it all last night, and i've decided i'm not going to "apologize" because i don't think i did anything wrong. the main reason i left when we were at willy wasn't cuz she didn't take me back to the cba. that wasn't her fault. i didn't tell her i had to go back so that was on my part. but when she's around tamara, gupsa, rania, and sat, she's so different. it's like yea sina's there but these girls are cooler. but with me, it's like yea they're my really good friends, but she's still my best friend and i don't segregate her from me when i'm around them. but man, iono. i don't think i did anything wrong. yea maybe i didn't say bye when i left, but what i did isn't as bad as what she does. but whatever, she has tamara gupsa rania sat and tima, although tima won't be around for much longer, so i wanna see who she's gonna tell her sway stories to and who she's gonna go hang out with and blah blah. i know her and i know she definately won't consider them as people she can tell that sort of stuff too. on top of that, no i don't think i'll say that, but sooner or later she'll find out who her true friends are. yea and you know how her and clara aren't friends. yea well there's no reason why they aren't friends. they're not friends cuz supposedly clara spread rumors about susu. not true. it wasn't clara. clara had nothing to do with it and she didn't say a word to anyone. how could she if her and susu came back on the same plane on the same day and everything. it was someone else who witnessed it for their own eyes. man, some people are weird. but anyway to sum it all up, if she wants to reject this, that's fine, i've got more than 6 or 7 friends. if she does decide to accept this, then cool, we got some talkin to do but it's all good. i don't think i did anything wrong. that's all i have to say. anyway, so then yesterday, me, tania, nora, tania, and dina were gonna go for a ride. then lana points to me and goes um yur not coming cuz u'd rather hang out with susu. i'm like hello i had to do stuff and go home. lana knew that too cuz friday night she told me she was mad at me for leaving and i told her what happened and i promised her and she didn't say anything. so whatever i'm like fine i don't need this. so that pissed me off like whoa, then, tania didn't even say anything. fine, dina and nora didn't know, but i told tania on the phone when i called her back. and when lana said that she didn't even say anything. i was like wth and i just wanted to cry all night so i just went back inside and called my dad to pick me up. clara told me to sleep over instead so i didn't i went by her around 10:30. it was fun. she's cool. i never have these conflicts with her. i never had them with susu either but people get to her. maybe she can't help it, but other people have noticed it too, not just me. oh well, even though friday and saturday were horrible, last night was cool and i had fun with butta cuz we haven't hung out in a while. anyway, imma go find something to do. no practice today so i don't know if imma go to the cba cuz i need sleep so maybe i'll go take a nap now. i just need things to get back to normal and clear up already. chao ;]
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*hello. it's me again. i'm kinda out of it today. alright so here's the latest news. yesterday, the group had a meeting at the cba at 8:00 regarding the performance. i was supposed to go to 6 flags yesterday but i couldn't cuz i had to go to the meeting. so my mom and my sister went there with God knows who..i think my moms friends, and my dad was at work, so i decided to have a little pool get-to-gether. and i did. my dad knew about it so i had nothing to worry about. i cleaned the whole fricken house from 1 to 3:30. i invited rania, tamara, sat, gupsa, tania, lana, nora, dina, clara, nur, khalid, abdullah, anzor, paret, zaid, moomay, and omar, yet i left an open invitation to absolutely anyone who wanted to come. rania came around 4 and nart dropped her off. he had to leave to work in 10 minutes but he decided to throw me in the pool in my clothes and everything, but i knew he was gonna do it. finally he pushed me in but i took him in with me and flipped him in the air. it was hilarious. i felt bad though cuz he had to go to work but oh well ;] he like sped home and had to change. me and rania just hung out and she called everyone wondering where they were. [[fyi..khalid was supposed to tell the guys about it]] turns out he couldn't get in touch with any of them so they never knew about it except him. omar and moomay showed up around 5:50. finally i talked to zaid and paret and they were up for it but had no ride. gupsa wasn't gonna come though from the first minute cuz she had work at 5. tania couldn't come cuz she got her sty popped so it was swollen and she can't really leave the house. dina, lana, and nora went to anzor kaghado's bbq, and clara and nur didn't have rides. finally, zaid, khalid, paret, tamara, sat, and batoul show up around 6:50. moomay threw tamara and sat in the pool. the guys and rania and batoul just sat on the patio and stoyed. [[except for batoul of course]] i threw tamara and sat's clothes in the dryer and they got all dressed up in my clothes. finally i showered and we went to the meeting. meeting went for like 2 hours, we hung out, and i left around 11:30. nour and tania quit the group officially. it's sad man. it's not gonna be the same. susu might have to come back and dance with us again. so many things are happening. we need sway to come back already. thank God danny is coming back tomorrow and we're gonna start dancing again on monday. we need things to get back to normal already. anyone, so about an hour ago i find out everyone's at rania and moomay's house. it's weird because i could of sworn i invited her and her brother, but they can't do the same. i know what i call it. i call it being fake. yup. because when their friends are around, that it it's all over. oh well i don't care anyone. imma go there soon so we'll see. gotta go now..byebye.
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[05 Jul 2002|11:30am] |
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*hey guys. yea it's been a while since i wrote in here. iono i've just been out of it lately. a lot's happened but i don't feel like typing it all out. but let's see...monday, me, susu, khalid, and zaid went to garden state mall. paret was gonna come too but he had some stuff to do at home. susu had to buy a gift for tima for her birthday and i bought a shirt from fcuk that says "pot my pink". most people don't get it but when they figure it out they're like "oh my god" so yea i think im gonna return it cuz i really can't wear it anywhere. yea so after garden state we went back to khalid's house cuz his family was down the shore for a couple days. so yea at khalid's we watched the nalmiss performance, ate, stoyed, and hung out. it was fun. susu had work at 3 so she went and bought stoy for the guys, then dropped them off at zaid's to go swimming and took me home. khalid had a get-to-gether that night around 8 or 9. i was gonna go but i was way too tired cuz i haven't slept lately, so i was like forget it. thenn tuesday susu came over and swam and that was it. wednesday time left to california and susu came to swim again. that was that. yesterday, i was home all day again. we had a bbq and around 7:45 i went to the cba and around 8 we all went on our way down to see the firworks. it was susu, me, gupsa, sat, rania, tamara, zaid, khalid, anzor, abdullah, moomay, and paret. we stopped to get blankets from tamara's house on the way. khalid, zaid, paret, anzor, and abdullah started fighting on tamara's lawn. it was pretty funny. then we went straight to goffle road. i was supposed to go to tania's house earlier yesterday though. i couldn't cuz i had company over and i couldn't leave the house til like 8 and then by that time i was like forget it it's too late and that's when susu called me and i just went with them. after the fireworks we went back to the cba and just hung out there. it was rania's birthday yesterday so they bought her a cake and a gift so we did that. she was pretty upset yesterday so i was talking to her and tryin to comfort her a little. i feel bad cuz rania always gets stuck in situatios like this and i hate it. she doesn't deserve it cuz she really is a nice person. oh well there's nothing i can do. i can't get involved with these things. anyway. today, there's a meeting at 8:00 tonight at the cba regarding the performance so we have to go and bring our parents. my mom and my sister and some people went to six flags today. i would of went cuz i have nothing better to do but i have to go to that meeting and they won't be back in time. oh well it's all good. susu left this morning to maryland. she won't be back until monday morning. iono what im gonna do tonight. i wanna hang out with tania and lana and nora and dina but i think they might be mad cuz i didn't show up yesterday. it's not my fault though cuz i couldn't leave the house til 8. oh well iono what im gonna do. a lot of things are screwed up right now so i'm just like whatever. yea well imma go now...byebye.
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[27 Jun 2002|02:05am] |
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*yo yo yoooooooo!!!!! alrighty...here i am...to explain to you the most recent events of my life. well, sunday, i went to the cba to dance. i went full fledge practice. it felt good ;] monday i didn't go to school. i stayed home. around 5 gupsa picked me up and we went to the cba, then we went to valley for rania's graduation. it was nice ;] CoNgRaTs RaNoOs! as soon as they called her name we jjeetteedd to manchester. thank God we made it in time. at valley, we ran from the bleachers to the libaray. that's a long run. mind u i was wearing 2 or 3 inch sandals so yea i got 3 blisters ;'[ oh well. it's gross though. and they hurt. anyway, we made it in time. it was so much fun. we cheered for everyone it was so nice. afterwards we went to abdullah's house. we ate and hung out there so it was nice. then we went to the cba but someone died so we didn't wanna stay there so we went to willy. no one was there and like 10 minutes after we got there my mom called and was like come home. i was like ok cool. it wasn't that much fun anyway so i was like ok why not. i got home at like 11:30 so it wasn't that bad. then today i went to the cba and danced again. turns out sway and danny extended their trip a week so they won't be back until july 5. i guess that's good and bad. oh well. tania's here right now. she's sleeping over tonight. she's takin pics of me and i wanna hit her. tomorrow we're gonna exercise our brains out and then imma sleep by her tomorrow night. yea so listen to this. i gave like 10 pictures to clara to scan for me. about 4 days ago she sent them to me so as soon as i got them i emailed them to the people that were in them. there just happened to be 2 pics of me and hossam. [[jordanian hossam ;]] yea so i sent them to him. today, i get 2 e-mails from him. one is a nice little note with his picture attached. the other is another picture of him. oh man all i can say is wowowow. he looks so different. anyway i don't wanna get started on that topic. all i can say is can't wait to go to jordan!!!! chao ;]
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[22 Jun 2002|09:17pm] |
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*what up? oh man i'm in like the absolute worst mood. i'm hating life so much right now. ok well yesterday, i called tania like 50 billion times on her cell phone cuz she just got it back. well it's been a while since she's had it so i forgot the number. turns out i was calling the wrong number 50 times so i couldn't get in touch with her to do anything with her and the girls. so then me and susu went to the cba and danced for like half hour. then we went to yanal and abdullah's houses cuz they had to get some stuff (me, susu, zaid, yanal, and abdullah). then we went to willy and back to cba. susu ended up doing something for 3amo eyad so i sat in the car for 15 minutes. then i went up to see what she was doing and ended up getting stuck talking to dovlet for 20 minutes. i was so sick yesterday i felt like throwing up and dying. i'm feeling better today but man i seriously thought i needed to go to the hospital. anyway, so i got into a huge arguement with my father on the phone, and i got home around 11:45. i was so pissed off that i didn't wanna talk to anyone so i went to sleep at midnight. man i was soooooo pissed all night. anyway, then today came and i woke up at 12:30 .. cleaned for a little bit, and i went to tania's around 4. i felt really skanky so i came home around 5:30 and took a shower. then i sat around for a little and now my cousin iman is here. she got here like an hour ago. so yea i got bored and did my makeup for a little. then tania calls me and tells me that her, lana, dina, and nora are getting ready to go to t-bowl. i'd like to go but of course i'm not gonna ask my father and my mother's sleeping so blah. susu's at 3amer's house and then iono what she's doing. i would go to the cba but i'm not for 2 reasons: no ride and no one to chill with. anyway. i don't care but i feel bad for my cousin cuz she's leaving for the summer onh tuesday and this is her last weekend here and she wants to go and see everyone but hey what am i gonna do. i wish i had my license. ughhhhh i just wanna go into hiding for the rest of my life. it was working for a while but ehh. anyway i'm muking right now and i don't make sense so imma go. chao.
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*hey guys. what's goin on? man oh man. im so out of it today. let's see. what happened since monday. well, because of finals all week we get out early, so tuesday i went to tania's from 3:30 to 8:30. then susu picked me up and we stopped at the cba on the way home. no one was there so we went to willy p and everyone was there so we hung out there for a little. then she took me home and i studied. yesterday i had my algebra exam and i know i failed that. susu cut yesterday so she picked me up at 1:30 and we went to garden state to find a graduation dress for her. she found something but wanted to check willowbrook too so then we went there and she got a dress from macy's. i was gonna get the same one but it made me look fatter than i am so i was like eh. then she dropped me off at the cba at 6. me and rania hung out til 8 and then susu came back. she had to go to her yearbook signing party. she came back and we all jumped in the car and drove around, went to willy, i came home and studied and fell asleep in the middle of it. today, i had lunch for 2 hours before my history exam, and rania had her car today, so around 7:30 we got bagels and stoy from across the street, then we went to manchester since they don't start till 8. susu picks up her friend laura, khalid, and paret up in the morning so we hung out with them for like 15 minutes. then me and rania went to the cba. stoyed, played pool, and studied. alright so listen to this. adam pulls up like 10, 15 minutes later with some guys. they're like yo u need a ride back to school? he's like no i'll get some girl to bring me back. girl meaning rania. rania was like hell no i ain't takin him. i didn't bring him i'm not takin him. so the front doors were locked so he had to go through the mosque. we hid in the shash bash room so at first he didn't know we were there. i think he was upstairs the whole time. then an hour later he comes down lookin for us and i think he saw us through the window but oh well he didn't come in thank God. then rania's brother needed the car at 10 cuz he had work so we went back to rania's, picked up her brother, he took up back to school and took the car. my history final was harddddd assssss hellllll. oh man he said the highest grade was a 65 so he's gonna give us a curve. man i need 100 point curve. anyway oh well. tomorrow i have my spanish final. last final!!! i'll do good on that. yesss i get out at 9:30 tomorrow! then i gotta go pick up batoul and come back to school. she's coming to our school next year so i have to go pick her up and give valley her papers and give her a tour of the school. then i'll probably either hang out with susu or tania and lana and then we'll see what happens at night. well, i'm not exactly in the best mood right now cuz i have a lot on my mind and i just wanna die so imma go lay down for a little now. see ya. chao.
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[17 Jun 2002|12:42pm] |
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*salam oo 3alaikum! how's everybody doin? i'm just fine here. well today was the first day of finals. i had art and bio. it was okay. i get out at 11:40 so that's cool. me and danielle went to the library right after to get our summer reading books. if we don't get them now, we never will. we're not gonna read them anyway but hey. yea so i'm pretty bored now. i wanna go to the cba and dance a little. i haven't done that in like 2 weeks! imma get fatter than i already am watch. oh man. anyway, this weekend was eh. i went to the cba on friday night and tania slept over. we watched corky romano that night. i already saw it like 698503 times and laughed my butt off but i mad her watch it ;] we rented the mothman profecies too but didn't watch it. saturday night i got into another arguement with my mom and she wouldn't let me to go the cba party but my daddy took me anyway ;] susu brought me home that night and i just hung around online. sunday i stayed home and studied all day. i prolly failed anyway. then around 6 we went out to dinner for father's day. it was our family and some other family my parents are friends with so i went online from my cell phone and talked to khalid. then i came home and went online some more. talked to khalid, paret, nur, and my friend farah from seattle. then i studied some more and went to bed at 12. so it was ok. even though my mom was beasting all weekend but what'chya gonna do. gotta go. chao ;]
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